P Diddy Verdict & Why I Turned My Back On The Legal System

P Diddy Verdict & Why I Turned My Back On The Legal System

A Note Before You Read:

What I’m about to share is deeply personal. My heart is always, first and foremost, with survivors of sexual assault. No technicality, loophole, or legal explanation can erase their pain. This post is not about defending any person accused of harm. It’s about shedding light on how our legal system—flawed and rigid—can fail survivors and the people trying to deliver justice.

The Story I Never Thought I'd Have The Courage To Share

I know I still haven’t written the “get to know me” post—and at this point, it’s kind of a running joke. I’ve shared pieces of my journey as an investor, entrepreneur, and now blogger, but none of this was ever the plan.

I’ve never really opened up about how I ended up here. The truth always felt too dark—and truth be told, I carried a lot of shamearound it.

This career path wasn’t my dream. It was a massive detour, one I took after living through one of the most heartbreaking experiences of my life.

My Story: Why I Left Law

Back in the day, I had a plan. A clear, structured, bulletproof plan:get my law degree and fight for the good guys. I grew up with an aunt who worked in family law, and the stories she shared—both inspiring and heartbreaking—lit a fire in me. I knew, without a doubt, that I wanted to be a family court lawyer. I wanted to fight for every child who didn’t have a voice. That was my purpose.

When I got to university, I also fell in love with fashion and business. My plan was to study both, finish my degree, and then take the law conversion course. I believed I could balance both passions.It made sense to me.

It’s also important to note: I was one of the loudest voices in my law classes. My younger, naïve self harshly criticised jurors, calling them "dumb" or "illiterate." I fully believed that if I were ever on a jury, I'd deliver justice without fail.

Then life humbled me.

The Case That Broke Me

I was selected for jury duty.The case: sexual assault.

Despite what my heart told me, despite what my instincts screamed, I—along with 11 other jurors—returned a verdict of not guilty.

Here’s the truth no one prepares you for: the law is cold, technical, and full of loopholes.You are not there to follow your gut.You are there to follow the evidence—and only the evidence.

Did I believe he was guilty? Yes.Did it weigh heavily on my conscience? EVERY SINGLE DAY

But legally, the prosecution didn’t give us enough. And I was legally obligated to follow as instructed.

As a woman, this verdict felt like I had failed another woman.That feeling haunts me every day—the knowledge that justice wasn’t served, that a survivor was let down.

It’s a heavy burden to carry.

The same week, EastEnders aired a storyline where Linda Carter was raped. As viewers, we knew the truth. But in court, the man was found not guilty.The writers working with Rape Crisis UK, showed how survivors are let down by the system.

I watched, heartbroken. Because I had just lived that story in real life. Willingly or unwillingly, I was part of that injustice. 

That was my breaking point.

How could I spend my life working in a system that doesn’t deliver justice?

I dropped out of university soon after. - what was the point of carrying on ? 

The dream I built my life around died that day.

My Perspective on the Diddy Verdict

This is why I have empathy for the jury in Diddy's case. I’ve been on both sides. I was once the person tearing jurors apart —and later, I became the one others tore apart.

From a legal standpoint, the Diddy verdict makes sense, even if emotionally, it feels wrong. Here's the breakdown:

Transportation for Prostitution (Mann Act)

• Diddy was found guilty of transporting individuals across state lines knowing they would engage in prostitution.

  
  

• This charge doesn't require proof of force, coercion, or manipulation—just that the transportation happened with that intent.

  
  

Sex Trafficking (18 U.S.C. § 1591)

• This charge requires proof of force, fraud, or coercion to cause someone to engage in a commercial sex act.

  
  

• The jury wasn’t convinced by the prosecution, beyond a reasonable doubt, that Diddy used those means.

  
  

• The defence argued these were complicated, voluntary relationships—not criminal enterprises.

  
  

In Plain English:

He broke the law by paying for their travel, but the prosecution didn’t prove he forced them to do anything. That’s why he was found guilty on one count but not the other.

I personally believe the moment Ventura admitted that she willingly went back to Diddy—even if it was complicated, even if we know the emotional psychology behind it—created doubt for the sex trafficking charge from a legal standpoint. In law, that doubt matters. You can’t “connect the dots” or fill in the gaps emotionally; you’re bound by the evidence presented.

The Harsh Truth

I’ve been part of too many cases where justice wasn’t served—where guilty people walked free and innocent people were punished. I’ve seen how the law, in trying to be impartial, can and often does fail the very people it claims to protect.

The system is broken. We desperately need a reform. I don’t know if I’ll see that change in my lifetime, but I will continue to speak up and fight for it.

Until then, don’t just blame the jury. Blame the system that ties their hands.

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